Post by jaime2400 on Jul 9, 2009 20:03:26 GMT -5
How MCR saved my life.
It all started when I moved from Waukegan IL to Gurnee. I was different, I was seven years old. I constantly was made fun of, the stupidest things too, such as my nose or my voice or some Bull like that. I became very self conscious of myself and was always paranoid that someone was talking crap about me. My brother was made fun of too, he was constantly and to this day is called gay or faggot. Just because he cares about girls feelings doesn’t mean he is gay it means he is flipping considerate of others! So up until sixth grade I was depressed and had suicidal thoughts constantly, the few friends I had stabbed me in the back; I had no trust for anyone. The friend that was always there for me is and was just as much of an outcast as I am and was. I confided everything in her. We messed each other up, we got into drinking and taking pills. It made the pain go away, it was just a façade though. None of the pain was hidden it only hurt more and the more it hurt the more it showed. One day I flipped on MTV back when they played music on there. It was the song ‘Famous Last Words’ that was on my screen calling out to me. The words stuck to me and they have never left me. “I am not afraid to keep on living; I am not afraid to walk this world alone.” I looked into the band more only to discover their dark and romantic lyrics. The vengeance in their lyrics spoke to me, I found a band that knew how I felt as if they had been there too at one time or were there now. When I found out the lead singer aka Gerard Way was an alcoholic and addicted to pills and I saw that he stopped. I knew I could do it too. It gave me hope. When my mom saw me after I discovered this wonderful band she noticed how my eyes just seemed ‘brighter’ as she called it less dark and sad. For the first time since I was seven years old I truly smiled. Not a fake one, a real true smile. I was happy they had saved my life. I didn’t think about killing myself or anyone in my school for the entire day, I haven’t thought of killing myself since that day I discovered them.
Since then whenever I have thoughts like that about suicide, I just listen to My Chemical Romance and I don’t feel that way anymore, I remember just how many people have gone through the same thoughts I had and have. I remember I am worth living and I am not afraid to walk this world alone, because I will never be alone as long as My Chemical Romance and their fans are around I will never be alone. I can go and find a fan and talk to them like I had known them my entire life, just because I know that they have thought of the same things I have or similar.
One night a few months ago, I was doing really horrible in school. In every class I was failing, less than 60%. That night I went to hang out with my friend. She never really knew the thoughts inside my head. I knew I would be in trouble, so much trouble I would have my phone taken away. That itself wasn’t the worse thing in the world. When I got home my laptop was gone, my phone, my television and my ipod. I don’t have a normal cd player since it takes up too much space in my room. The whole night I was telling myself that I wanted to die. I didn’t have anything, no my chemical romance. I didn’t have them there. I tried to kill myself, I was so down about everything that night. Just to get myself not to do something worse I had to keep saying the words to their songs in my head. The next morning I woke up and I puked. This was a warning to me, somehow someone didn’t want me to die. I am not a religious person but if there is anyone up they didn’t think it was my time to go. Eventully I got my laptop back, along with my ipod and my television. My Chemical Romance gave me the drive to get my stuff back together.
They have saved my life so many times if I ever got the chance to meet them I would just say “Thanks for saving my life.” Or simply just “Thanks,” They know why I would say thanks, I wouldn’t need to say more. They are true to their words,
"This is a band that will save your life."
- Frank Iero.
It all started when I moved from Waukegan IL to Gurnee. I was different, I was seven years old. I constantly was made fun of, the stupidest things too, such as my nose or my voice or some Bull like that. I became very self conscious of myself and was always paranoid that someone was talking crap about me. My brother was made fun of too, he was constantly and to this day is called gay or faggot. Just because he cares about girls feelings doesn’t mean he is gay it means he is flipping considerate of others! So up until sixth grade I was depressed and had suicidal thoughts constantly, the few friends I had stabbed me in the back; I had no trust for anyone. The friend that was always there for me is and was just as much of an outcast as I am and was. I confided everything in her. We messed each other up, we got into drinking and taking pills. It made the pain go away, it was just a façade though. None of the pain was hidden it only hurt more and the more it hurt the more it showed. One day I flipped on MTV back when they played music on there. It was the song ‘Famous Last Words’ that was on my screen calling out to me. The words stuck to me and they have never left me. “I am not afraid to keep on living; I am not afraid to walk this world alone.” I looked into the band more only to discover their dark and romantic lyrics. The vengeance in their lyrics spoke to me, I found a band that knew how I felt as if they had been there too at one time or were there now. When I found out the lead singer aka Gerard Way was an alcoholic and addicted to pills and I saw that he stopped. I knew I could do it too. It gave me hope. When my mom saw me after I discovered this wonderful band she noticed how my eyes just seemed ‘brighter’ as she called it less dark and sad. For the first time since I was seven years old I truly smiled. Not a fake one, a real true smile. I was happy they had saved my life. I didn’t think about killing myself or anyone in my school for the entire day, I haven’t thought of killing myself since that day I discovered them.
Since then whenever I have thoughts like that about suicide, I just listen to My Chemical Romance and I don’t feel that way anymore, I remember just how many people have gone through the same thoughts I had and have. I remember I am worth living and I am not afraid to walk this world alone, because I will never be alone as long as My Chemical Romance and their fans are around I will never be alone. I can go and find a fan and talk to them like I had known them my entire life, just because I know that they have thought of the same things I have or similar.
One night a few months ago, I was doing really horrible in school. In every class I was failing, less than 60%. That night I went to hang out with my friend. She never really knew the thoughts inside my head. I knew I would be in trouble, so much trouble I would have my phone taken away. That itself wasn’t the worse thing in the world. When I got home my laptop was gone, my phone, my television and my ipod. I don’t have a normal cd player since it takes up too much space in my room. The whole night I was telling myself that I wanted to die. I didn’t have anything, no my chemical romance. I didn’t have them there. I tried to kill myself, I was so down about everything that night. Just to get myself not to do something worse I had to keep saying the words to their songs in my head. The next morning I woke up and I puked. This was a warning to me, somehow someone didn’t want me to die. I am not a religious person but if there is anyone up they didn’t think it was my time to go. Eventully I got my laptop back, along with my ipod and my television. My Chemical Romance gave me the drive to get my stuff back together.
They have saved my life so many times if I ever got the chance to meet them I would just say “Thanks for saving my life.” Or simply just “Thanks,” They know why I would say thanks, I wouldn’t need to say more. They are true to their words,
"This is a band that will save your life."
- Frank Iero.
